Anxiety & Panic Attacks

Anxiety and Panic Attacks are not the easiest of things to talk about. As everyone has their own unique experiences with them.

Also some people are judgmental and think because maybe your out shopping or out for a meal that you can’t possible have Anxiety.

Well I disagree, any two people won’t have the same experience or triggers.

I have Anxiety that is linked to being on my own and also connected to leaving my children on their own. Or them having to deal with situations on their own. So being in social situations really doesn’t effect me at all.

Since I was a teenager I have also had panic attacks. These can come from triggering part of my anxiety that puts me into panic mode. So if I think I can’t fill my lungs with air I have a panic attack. So if I over heat on public transport this can trigger it.

As I have grown I have found ways to cope and I also know what some of the triggers are for my panic attacks. My triggers are getting to hot and the fear of fainting in public or being sick in public. When I used to get the train to work I would have to carry a sick bag with me even when I wasn’t ill.

I have also always carried polos and olbus oil, the mints to take away the feeling of being sick. The olbus oil as it makes me feel like I can fill my lungs with air.

I wouldn’t say I suffer as on a whole it doesn’t effect my day to day life. Until very recently I hadn’t had a panic attack for at least a few years. In the last 3 weeks I have had two.

I don’t know why I don’t know what has triggered them, but they were awful. Draining both physically and mentally.

The worst part about panic attacks is the un predictability of them. The fact that they can happen at anytime, and my most recent two had none of the usual triggers I wasn’t alone I wasn’t in public. I didn’t feel like I couldn’t breath. They just came out of no where.

Im not letting it knock me though Im seeing these as a little blips along my life line. I know I can get back on top and put my coping mechanisms in place so if I feel a panic attack coming along I can stop it in its tracks so it doesn’t control me and I control them. Feeling out of control is what bothers me the most.

I dont really have any advice just sharing my experience as its more common than a lot of people realise. It’s not a weakness or a sign of failing. It’s different for everyone and talking to each other can really help.

If you feel like you are really struggling make sure you talk to a medical professional or even family and friends.

Thank you so much for reading, I have also spoke about this in a Youtube Video if you would like to watch I go into a little more detail.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3wsRKVvC8s&feature=youtu.be