September Is Terrifying Me ( Back To School )

Theres 12 days left of the school holidays.

 That really really isn’t very long at all.

And honestly I’m terrified for a few different reasons.

  1. I’m not actually fully prepared yet. We don’t have all the uniform or shoes. We also don’t have any water proof coats that fit anymore. So I need to find about £200 to pay for all this. Well we have the money as we knew we needed this stuff but it’s still a killer paying it out isn’t it.
  2. I feel like I have let the kids slip in the holidays. They haven’t done anywhere near enough reading and zero maths or writing. They used to keep a diary of the holidays. This was just so they kept up their writing. This year nothing and its Elijah that I feel will suffer most for it. I have ordered some activity books and reading books that he can read out loud alone so sorting this issue slowly.
  3. Bed time has gone out of the window, when at home we normally always keep a good bedtime routine. We have showers pjs book and bed. Not going to lie my kids haven’t had a shower for three days (eeewww) and thats because we have become so chilled in the evening its 8 o’clock before we even think about bed. And closer to 9:30 before going up. This means stories out the window as their just too tired. We need to start getting back to normal quick.

And the biggest reason of all is Seth is starting reception. He is leaving me full-time. We won’t have half the day together anymore. His going to be a big boy at school actual school. 

I can’t even begin to tell you how much I’m going to miss them all when they go back never mind the emptiness I will feel not having Seth around.


Also im not 100% sure what I’m going to do with my self. I have always been super social but this has always been around socializing the kids. So we would meet up with the kids and have a coffee. What if people don’t want to just see me?? 

Also can I justify just going for coffee or lunch when Adams at work and the kids are in school?? (I’m sure I can) 

I think I just feel a little lost. I had already made the decision that I won’t be going back to a 9-5 job as it just doesn’t work for our family. I have considered looking for work in a school. Honestly I don’t really love other peoples kids that much. Friends kids are different as you know them but kids you don’t know not sure how to be around them and don’t think I would be any good at it.

So I am going to put my full focus into this website and also our YouTube channel. It’s a hobby more than a job at the moment but I’m hoping it will keep my mind working.

I do also have a few other projects that I’m working on but only time will tell if anything will come of them.

So empty nest syndrome is in full force now and I’m dreading September 5th.

I have 12 days to make the absolute most of being with my little ones and cuddling them tight every hour of everyday.

Thank you for reading see you next time xx